so so sorry to my wu jie shinyi.

although i changed my shift with my colleague.

but still i cant make it to ur bdae chalet.

sorry~!!

forgive me k?

im not perposely de..

but on tat night.

me and my colleagues went MOS.

almost full attendance lor.

except my boss, james not there.

see..

1st assistant - haffis

2nd assistant - suet

floor manager - fadzli

crew leader - pooja , afiza

crews - bobbie, manchot, hanafi

shift leader - dila

beanie - vera

really enjoyed myself man.

the most shocking thing is.

most of us already got drunk outside our store.

lols.

fun fun~

but tiring lah.

im old le ba.

wahaha~

=DD

on 25th nina and me went jb.

sway me.

did closing on 24th.

but forget to put back the shuttle keys.

i realised it was in my pockets when i reached my block.

so 25th 7morning 8morning need to go back store again to surrender the keys.

sians.

somemore faizal opening.

double sway double sians.

den~

met nina at bugis at 9am.

den we walked over to the bus station to meet shi an to bring us to jb.

ar bo we surely got lost de~!!

haa.

we had mac porridge for breakfast.

hmm.

not as nice as the 'singa-porridge' we used to have.

haha.

met 3 of nina's crews abt 1130.

yeap and foo meng joined us ard 1330.

total there's 10 of us.

big group ehh.

haa.

no car.

so we took cabs and travelled place by place.

they can really bargain the price lor.

power~

haa.

we went shopping for the whole day.

i used s$100 exchange RM235.

i bought myself 2 watches 1 bag 1 shoe.

i still got RM40 left.

felt so happy and satisfied.

hee.

=p

thanks nina for organising such a trip and thanks to her crews for bringing us ard for the whole day.

(:

my boy was so angry with me coz i couldnt managed to resevered place at kuishin bo.

for his dad's bdae celebration.

its a weekday so i TOT wont be tat much ppl.

so i called the day b4.

was fully booked liao.

kena scold frm my boy.

hais.

so ended up he and his bro prepared steamboat at home.

yup.

guilty miee~

sorry dear..

):

yeah yup went hiking with iris and xiu on 30th~!!

had our breakfast at yck.

den took bus to bukit timah.

den we found our way there.

starting is so tough lor.

SO steep.

omg~

we finished our hike in abt 1hr and 45mins

(:

so many many jokes happened frm beginning to ending.

i dont wish to eleborate coz i dont wana throw my own face.

for sure iris will throw my face de.

so for more detail abt our hiking.

refer to her blog ba~

lols..

aft hiking.

i went home had a bath.

den went to eunos to meet my 2 cousins.

den we went to the RSAF open house.

reached there.

raining cats and dogs.

sians~

so bo bian we take a look at the indoor galleria.

aft a while.

the rain stops liao.

den we watched all the planes and the air show.

nice.

(:

work is always so stress.

i really hate things are not done in my way.

im so afraid tat my bad temper is back again.

i dont want~!!

hais.

i really felt so bad i shouted at him.

i told haffis 'its really very true tat its not good to be too close to crews'

he agreed.

i rmb jun told me this.

coz she used to always quarrell with nina.

looks like the same case as mine now.

i told haffis tat i felt so sorry and guilty tat i shouted at him.

feel like gg to say 'sorry' to him.

but haffis stopped me.

he told me 'u must rmb u're a manager. if u go and say sorry to him, he will take advantage in the future. u just pretend nth happened.'

hmm ok lor.

perhaps he's right.

so tat night i went home without saying sorry and i went home with guilt.

im so excited~!!

6 more days to our 1st anni.

hee.

=p

*loves boy

phew~

national day had finally over.

although we are did not met our initial target.

but i believe tat my team had did their best.

and of coz i did my best too!

guess wat?

perhaps most of u all might think tat im crazy.

but all i can say is tat im just TOO OVER committed in my work.

8aug i worked 2pm to 11pm.

dennis changed shift with me coz its his bdae.

so he worked 730am to 430pm instead.

den 9aug(ITS THE DAY) i worked 7am to 1am.

18hrs leh~!!

my goodness!!

hmm its like so damn busy and i dont have the heart to leave.

so i stayed up aft 4pm to help out.

busy all the way working its like wont feel the tiredness.

the tiredness comes aft the busy-ness.

but at 750pm i went missing.

coz..

i went out to wait to watch fireworks!!

LOLs~!!

=DD

at first actually haffis told me tat at 8pm he will go out to watch fireworks with me.

but abt 8pm liao.

he's stucked at work.

but i managed to sneak out.

haa.

actually i supposed to go up foodcourt to meet renne and tirta de.

but by then the whole mall is already damn packed.

no chance for me to go up de.

so ended up i watched fireworks alone.
sad hor?
lols.

stress ah~

lotsa stuffs happened at work.

so shocking and unbelivable.

always i met problems.

haffis will tell me 'zo lang tuo si ah ni kuan'

and today problems found him.

so i told him 'zo lang tuo si ah ni kuan, this wat u always tell me'

ya i believe tat too.

most of the times we cant control wat is happening or wat had happened.

all we can do is accecpt the fact ba.

(:

if its not urs.

forever its not urs.

perhaps its time for me to hands off le ba.

and i can conclude tat our friendship is not tat strong as i expected.

its really sad to say this.

but wat else i can say?

now all i focus on is my work.

yup.

i believe tat there's future in there.

hope im not wrong lah.

(:

im going for another class on october.

i hope i can score well and be proud of my store.

but the swayEST thing is im going class with tat stupid idiot faizal~!!

-_-

now if ask me to go back school to study.

im like not interested liao.

yup.

i dunno how james can cope with work and at the same time studying part-time.

salute him.

haa.

hmm on 20th going for shin's.

tat's a long day for me lor.

work.

meeting.

chalet.

lucky the next day im off.

hee.

and on 30th going hiking with iris all.

yeah yeah.

yup yup promisd no back out this time round.

excited~

=DD

alright tat's all folks~

see ya jies on 20th.

(:

another day had past.

my boy took half day off as he need to go cgh for dental check up.

since im not working so i met him at cgh at 3pm.

aft his check up abt 430pm.

we went to marina to collect his mp3.

ya his mp3 was sent to repair within a mth.

aft repairing they claims tat no fault.

-_-

den was shopping ard.

we ended up decided dinner at yuki yaki.

hmm alright lah.

left yuki yaki abt 830pm.

did a little bit more shopping.

den left marina.

*iris.. actually when u called me i was at marina too.since u replied me so late so i did not called u back..=p

i still feel tat im a bad friend.

i felt guilty~

due to my work schedule not fixed.

weekends not necessary my off days.

even if i off on weekends.

i chose to go out with my boy.

coz he oso only free on weekends.

its my rare chance.

so mostly friends asked my out on weekends.

either im working or im out with my boy.

am i zhong se qing yong?

sounds like right?

hais.

boy had been asking me to change job recently.

he asked me whether im working this for life?

i told him if there's a chance for promotion i will stay.

den he told he will give me moral support.

i hope he meant wat he said.

(:

coz i love the job.

i love wat im doing although im stress at times.

i believe tat watever job out there.

for sure there's advantage and disadvantage.

for sure there's a level of stress-ness.

i believe tat there is NO job without stress de.

so i will stay with this job until... ...

arghhh~

boy noes wat im gonna buy for him next mth le.

no good de.

no more surprise liao.

sads.

):

25th gg jb with nina and kallang's gang~

kinda looking forward for this outing.

shld be fun ba.

=DD

28th is boy's dad's bdae.

boy says wana go kuishin bo for dinner.

hee.

yupp~

happy 11th.

*loves

(:

teresa came down on tues.

tot she will be doing ppa.

but ended up no.

she looked thru the national day schedule.

hmm feedback lot lot.

wat to do.

she's the boss.

national day is like 3more days nia.

excited but scared.

hope to achieve our 30k sales.

team lets work hard!!

=DD

as for national day preview sales.

21k vs last yr's 18k.

well done.

(:

suet~

dont think so much.

life still move on.

be happy k?

well im alright now.

perhaps still not perfectly alright ba.

i really would rather dont wana noe anything.

truth is really rather hurting.

y did you ask me?

if you did not ask me.

i dont know anything.

if i dont know anything.

i wont feel hurt.

now i noe the truth le.

i really feel so "bu gan yuan".

hais.

perhaps way boy says is right.

since they dont treat me as friend anymore.

its not worth it to be sad.

if one of them still treat me as friend.

the one will try their best to keep the friendship.

seems like no one is doing anything abt it.

which mean that i already meant NOTHING to them.

it sounds like they're still happily together without me.

i think its really time for me to let go le ba.

for the past 5mths how i hope things will get better.

but no.

am i suppose to hate the one who let me noe the truth?

or to be happy tat finally i noe the truth already?

i wonder...

boy.

im sorry tat im not a perfect girlfriend.

i noe i do take things for granted at times.

but... ...

im a useless friend

im a useless girlfriend

im the most useless human being in the earth

leave me alone.

dont ask me wat happened.

i just wana be alone